This is how it felt to let go of P-Bear. My whole heart is trying to balance the contradictions. Everything in me loved him like a son, but I knew he wasn't going to be mine. I feel overhwelming peace about his family, but I want him back in my arms. It's nice to have more time on my hands, but I'd give anything to be crazy busy again. I know God is directing his life and it's not really about me. So I surrender to whatever He's doing.
Please pray for him and his new Mama. This adjustment time can be so hard. And the Enemy hates to see a child enter a family of believers, so he will be on the prowl.