Friday, December 21, 2007
Posted by Heather at 9:30 AM
Thursday, December 20, 2007
Posted by Heather at 11:53 AM
Monday, December 10, 2007
I'm stubborn. I don't like being bossed around. I tend to want to rebel when authority tries to tell me what to do. I kinda like breaking rules and getting away with it, especially when I have decided it was a dumb rule anyway. I tend to not care what people think of me. I'm not into people pleasing, trying to look cute or fashionable all the time (although Jay says that sometimes it just happens and I have to deal with that), I drive an old car, I live in a weird looking house that no one else would buy (apparently). It has taken me 33 years to get to this point, and I feel so free. BUT.... when it comes to my walk with the Lord I wobble, I worry, and I wonder if I am getting it right. I often wish His voice wasn't so still and quiet. Yet even the stuff that is right in front of me in black and white is difficult to live out. I just feel like I should be farther along with it all. There are days that I look at myself and wonder why I am acting like a baby Christian when I have walked with the Lord since I was 6. Why can't I get this right? The same stuff trips me up again and again.
"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." 2Cor 12:9
And then I remember that I am not supposed to be doing any of this. I am supposed to lay down my life, my plans, my desires, my pride that tells me I can do it if I just try harder, and I am supposed to let God use me, work through me, and be glorified in me.
Lord please help me to lay down. Please help me to be still. Strip me of selfishness, pride and ambition. I have been stubborn and rebelious in your presence and I ask your forgiveness. Replace my selfish desires with the perfect plan you have for me. I do not want anything that is outside your will for my life. Help me to remember to be still and know that you are God and to rest in your faithfulness.
Posted by Heather at 10:31 PM
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
Old roomies, soon to be reunited(:
Posted by Heather at 8:14 PM
Saturday, November 17, 2007
God has truly done a miracle in Berny's heart! Throughout his time here I have been showing him pictures of his parents and getting very little response from him. He would just nod at me as if I were explaining calculus. As the time got closer for him to leave I started praying for God to prepare his heart to go home. Recently I printed out some pics of his parents and really explained that he would be flying on the airplane to go home to them soon. The difference was night and day. You cannot fully appreciate it if you can't see it, but there is a light in his eyes when he talks about them now. He carries their picture and talks about going home to them all the time. He is joyful about it. I believe with all my heart that God blurred the memory of them while he needed to heal and now that it is time to go home God has put them back in his heart. I know this like I know the sky is blue. GOD did this! Thank you Lord for answered prayers and for the peace that has come over me knowing that Berny is happy!!
Posted by Heather at 9:47 AM
Friday, November 9, 2007
Posted by Heather at 8:58 AM
Monday, October 29, 2007
Another praise is that we met with a therapist concerning G last week and have a real hopefulness for him. If you have a mood swing/easily frustrated/highly irritable child I recommend "The Explosive Child" by Greene. It is truly helping us see his behaviour for what it is - a discrepancy in his brain wiring, and NOT an attitude problem. He is doing great and his teacher is a wonderful person who is so totally on board with helping him! What a praise. Thank you Lord! I really struggled with putting him in school, but now I can see that the structure of it is so good for him, and is something I could not provide - I'm a seat of your pants kind of girl! Plus, it was this huge, scary unknown for him and now he is doing it. What a confidence builder(:
The girls continue to do well. They love school and their friends. I told them the other day that they were young but they were already serving God. They are so mature and able to handle things that it gives me the time and energy to take care of the boys. Not every child could handle living in this house with such compassion and grace, but they do it beautifully. God has big plans for these girls! But for now, they are enabling me to fulfill the call on my life to be Mom to many. They truly are precious treasures to me!
And here are a few pics from our weekend in New York with Jay's sister. We came up and surprised her for her birthday and did the one night cruise out of Manhattan. It was a fun trip.She was VERY surprised and broke into the ugly cry!
Ahh.... the beautiful Jersey Shore.
Heading under the Verrazano Narrows, and out to sea.
This is Jay's dramatic reenactment of the Exxon Valdeze accident.
Lindsay, these are for you(:
WOW, how stinkin' cute is my husband?!?!?!?
OK, back to nose and butt wiping....(: More later.
Posted by Heather at 5:11 PM