I Saw What I Saw

Well, I am still not back to the blessed/not blessed discussion, but my thoughts have been elsewhere lately. I am mainly struggling with feeling a little too pampered in this life. The Bible talks so much about living as a pilgrim here on earth. We are not to get too settled, too vested, or too comfortable. We are to live so that others can see that we are living for the Lord and not for our own pleasure or gain. I've really been trying to examine my life to those standards lately. Let me give you some concrete examples of stuff that goes through my head. There are starving children in the world, but I spend a fair amount of money every month feeding 3 horses, 2 dogs, a rabbit, a hamster and 3 fish. Is it sinful to have all these animals? There are homeless people in the world and we have a guest room that gets slept in about once a month. I am often too busy/lazy to make a menu and shop for well priced groceries so I end up getting take out or buying stuff last minute at higher prices. We live in a nice house in a nice area with lots of "toys" at our disposal. Do we look like people just passing through? Do we look different than anyone else? I'm not sure we do. I've been thinking about the heading on Lori's blog (Lori in Cazale) which says, 'Live simply so that others may simply live." She sees people every day whose lives could be saved by the amount of money I spent on Gabe's happy meal. When I was in Haiti I swore I would never go home and be unchanged. I saw the need. I felt the conviction to help. But back at home there are now 8 other people sharing this house with me. I am certainly not the only one for whom decisions are being made. How do I reconcile all these things? I think I have some praying to do.